Again I think. Again I find myself asking
“Could it be her?
Could she be the one, who I will share my heart with?
My life with?”
How can I contain my emotions?
I want to ask, “How are you?”
“What makes you laugh?”
For I have seen your Christlikeness.
And everyday this affection I have seems to grow.
Oh how I pray!
That God will test my heart
And determine if what lies within me is true
God forbid, if I should awaken love,
Before it so pleases.
For if I do, that would be contrary to love.
So I chose to wait.
To wait prayerfully.
To long for Your kingdom to be established,
Here on earth as it is in heaven.
For it is better that I die
Than that I do anything by my own understanding.
For how could I forsake the wondrous ways of God?
Ways that are good.
How could I forsake the ways of a loving Father?
So as long as it takes.
I will wait for her.
I will wait for God to lead,
Then and only then will I follow.